THIS IS MY LAST POST IN THIS SITE........HOPE SEE YOU SOON.....TILL NEXT TIME.........

aniweiz i started this post with grief, madness, regrets and with negative emotions. know what nadi na ako nagiging masaya. siguro nga napaparanoid na ako or baka nman masyado lang depressed. some people hate me because on what im doing in this site.

ive decided now not to post my deepest wounds here because people did not understand me. i did not want talga what they are saying. nanghihinayang lamang ako kasi nga talgang nakaplano na ako na magconfess pero dahil nga sa mga naririnig at nababasa ko nanghihina na ang loob ko na magupdate ng magupdate dahil wala nman akong naririrnig o nakikita na positeive comments. puro na lamang pasaring at puro na lamang mga lungkot at galit sa akin......hay naku sad to say goodbye talaga....kaya till next tym na lang...huhuhuhu...i think nadi pa ako handa para tigilan ito pero sa tingin ko kailangan na para gumising ako........................................................

CONFESSIONS #1

Exactly three years ago, I had shouted…I had furiously shouted…It was raining very hard that day…I was facing the sea even if it seems my vision could not locate the sea horizon..Wind was blowing very hard..I was helplessly kneeling on the sand…both my hands where angrily clasped on million of sand grains..No other people in sight…Even if there was, I won’t be able to see them from this very heavy rain and strong winds..And that’s the time wherein I shouted… At the top of my lungs, I had shouted…….. “I WILL BE AVENGED!!” It was three years ago when I first encounter the taste of defeat. I had been looked down, misunderstood, had been taken advantage, had been the center of humiliation, tormented by fear, betrayed…Oh yes I was….Betrayed by my very own heart…. Pain was nothing new for me…What I felt by that time? I was completely crushed from the pit I had fallen.. DISTRAUGHT! How I asked God why such cruelty had happened to me….. it had been my downfall …From that very day.. how sharp my eyes had been….that day…that very day which had left a permanent pain in my heart…that day w/c I had not forgotten…that day that would change the totality of me..because that very same day……I thirst for vengeance…The last tears from my eyes had fallen…How I sharply utter the phrase “That would be the last tears coming from my eyes!!.. I won’t be a rival of yours..I’ll never be..It was not included in my plan to be as good as you all..Why? Because I won’t be good…I will be great… I’ll rise above you all.. Close to perfection as to say..

CONFESSION#2

It seems as if I'm at the lowest point of my life ryt now....What wud u feel if ur group of frnds..ur 2nd family as to say..had said something behind ur back..And I do mean the cliques of urs that u considered as ur family..And I am referring not to a single person but 6 of ur closest frnds.. I dunno...skul probs, and now my closest of frnds.....it's too much to take..Up to this point wherein I was writing my journal,I'm still grieving...Dunno where I am headin right now....tick tick tick...let the insanity begins..

LIFE IS VERY IRONIC (kung sino mahal mo di ka mahal tapos kung sinom pa yung kinakainisan mo yun pa ang nagmamahal sa iyo ng totoo)

living in this world with people that really pretend that they like you is really unexplainable. know what after all of those years na magkakasama kayo tapos malalaman mo isang araw ayaw pala nila sa iyo at parang pagksama mo sila naaasar sila dahil kasama ka...it is really hard...nangyayari to ngayong sa isang close friend ko....sad to say but "friend" wag kang maging manhid...kung ayaw nila sa iyo eh di wag...dami naman iba diyan na lubos na nagpapahalaga sa iyo kagaya ko, nila, namin....i am not saying na against ako sa kanila...at nadi rin ako nakikialam siguro may iba silang dahilan at yung pagkaayaw nila sa iyo nung time lang na iyon di ba?

minsan sa buhay natin makakaramdam tayo ng matinding kasiyahan, pagkalungkot , at ibat iba pang emosyon....ngunit parang ang iba hindi man lamang binibigyan ng importansya ang mga bagay na bininigay at pinadarama natin sa kanila.."corny!!!" it really really happens...sa buhay ko at sa mga buhay niyo for sure nadarama ninyo yan kasi mga tao tayo...masakit ang pakiramdam ng iiwan ng kaibigan at ng taong mahal na mahal mo sa mga darating na oras.....siguro this is their time para nman maiba ang routine o whatever sa buhay nila...para sa akin isang malaking challenge ang pagalis ng mga malimit sa buhay at sa puso mo dahil itinuturing mo silang mga tunay na kaibigan, tao at kasangga..hehehee

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this is the day na may ipinagtapat ako sa isang tao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!na lubos kong minamahal

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